I really do love May. I always have. And when Ben popped into my world, I loved it even more.
But right now I just don't know what to do with myself. Sometimes I'll even catch myself feeling antsy and anxious. Hate that.
I don't want to cry, so I haven't been. Much. The puffy eye look isn't good on me. And I can just picture Ben shrugging his shoulders with a "Gin,-we've-been-over-this" attitude.
That empty ache is still there. It just might be permanent. But I don't want to be stuck. Ben wouldn't (doesn't) want me stuck either. That's when people get frumpy...
No more wallowing. For now.
In so many aspects, I have been blessed beyond measure.
But right now I just don't know what to do with myself. Sometimes I'll even catch myself feeling antsy and anxious. Hate that.
I don't want to cry, so I haven't been. Much. The puffy eye look isn't good on me. And I can just picture Ben shrugging his shoulders with a "Gin,-we've-been-over-this" attitude.
That empty ache is still there. It just might be permanent. But I don't want to be stuck. Ben wouldn't (doesn't) want me stuck either. That's when people get frumpy...
No more wallowing. For now.
In so many aspects, I have been blessed beyond measure.
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